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While I still think, and am angry, that NUS is very unfair on my NOC issue, I’m not sore nor demoralized by the whole sage, in fact, I have a grateful heart and a few things to thank God for. :)

Brien had Prof Teo wouldn’t be bother about offering assistance if they had outrightly rejected me right?

I met her for dinner to tell about me going on NOC – a whopping 10K+ investment, the NUS school fees for 3 semesters and some allowance for me to live well in Shanghai.

You know what? My mum only gasp for awhile but coolly ok me, without having the need to recheck her finances or something. 10k is no small sum you know. And if she was willing to invest 10k on me, I think I stand a pretty good chance of getting a 10k (angel) investment if I needed money for my own start-up in the future. 

Oh and ya, I found that she SPEAKS at Singapore Business Fed and SCCCI. The big shots LISTEN to what she has to say. I think she can also help me open some indirect doors to internship at Shanghai.

HAHAHA. My mum is AWESOME. Worship her and me already. :D

When I applied a semester before my dad didn’t want me to leave if I get in. But when I spoke over the phone to tell him I’m going to Shanghai, he ok me so quickly that I thought he got the information wrong. Got to keep drilling him the fact before I was certain that I passed his approval test. 

It shouldn’t be a problem with me if I want to leave on my own again. :D

Because of all the awesomeness God has showered me in this sage, I am hard pressed but not broken. I let go of this issue, but this doesn’t mean that I’m willing to take it lying (is this the correct lie/lay to use) down even though I’m very clear that it is more possible for earth to be destroyed in 2012 than for me to get back on the program. 

After all, it takes a potted plant to kill a young girl’s life before Singapore banned all items to be placed on window ledge; so even if I am unfairly denied this chance, I think such chances should not be denied for my juniors who are less blessed than I am.

I’m extremely blessed because I’m such a resilient girl I wouldn’t mind crawling my way through if all the doors are locked. Me denied of NOC only means the easiest way to China is blocked. If I still want and am determined to head over to Shanghai, I genuinely believe that I can and nothing can stop me. My toughest enemy is myself.   

Anyway I was typing, whoever in their last semester whose CAP isn’t great enough to even declare a Honors track are going to much disadvantaged than I am because NOC surely will not even let them in in the first place; this means lesser contacts for them,unless they have awesome parents like I do. HOHOHO.

So what leaves them? Who knows, the world may lose a great entrepreneur, or a company may lose the break through they need. They may even end up at a sucky day job, wasting their live away. You really cannot tell the potential of a person by their grades, looks or even semesters they have taken.

Even though quite a bit of friends tell me “aiya, NUS is liddat one lah”, I think there something intrinsic about my nature that I still can let this issue pass by me, even if it doesn’t concern me anymore.

grrr…

Maybe I’ll drop an email to someone someday about this. 

Anyway I’m writing this post because Denise says my previous post was angsty. She was right though. I am angry. 

I can’t help but to feel angry when I see kids dropping dead because of hunger, when I see youths who don’t suffer from starvation but they live without ever discovering themselves and their passions, or when education institutes build ranks than lives. 

I can’t help but to be angry at unfairness and injustice, and I don’t see what’s wrong with being angry about it or what’s wrong in standing up for it. I believe in passionate anger, anger that brings out good to the society. After all, there is a reason why angry as an emotion does not get evolved out of the human species, and even Jesus flipped tables.